-My Life , My Desire-

looking my best...

2009-09-07T03:09:00.000-07:00

So my birthday cumin up... n i wanna look my best :)

Damn it!!!

2009-09-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

:(
You know what happen yesterday? Of course u dont noe I havent tell u yet. I accidently ate pork.. and im a muslim. What sadness. My dad kinda like bought this japanese biscuit ( rice cracker)

So, it tasted so nice... I wanted to know the ingredients. I already took 2 bites and it went to my tummy :p. So, I was putting in the crackers into my mouth for the 3 bite. I havent bite anything. So, I went through the list of ingredients.... - peanuts,palm oil,seasoning,etc,etc,etc, chicken, PORK!!!!!-

I then, spit out the damn thing.... rinse my mouth and brushed my teeth. I told my dad about it, so he said he didnt know it b4 coz b4 this he bought rice crackers which was halal. He said to throw it away, so I did what he told me too. So, I feel so guilty now, I feel so sinful eventhough I did it accidentally :(

My birthday...

2009-09-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

So yeah... my birthday is like OMG coming
Its on 11 September like 9 more days :) So, I have a list of things I want for my birthday. Dont take things personal. If ur reading this, u can choose any of the below to give me as a present on my birthday. If u have nothing in mind I meant :-

1 . Anything that has to do with flowers (hair clip, bouquet, flower with a teddy bear on top.. etc)

2. Food - cupcakes, cookies, cakes or etc.

3. Glittery stuff - glitter pens, tiara, accesories, key chain.

4. Anything with my name on it - frame, picture with me in it or keychain.

5. Anything which I will enjoy - girls stuff :), or money!!

what!!!

2009-09-01T23:53:00.000-07:00

What sadness.... all my effort goes to dust :(
So, yeah today I taught we had to present our senamrobik thing, so I worked hard tiredly. Yesterday I stayback at school to practice until 5.30 pm. Oh boy was I tired. But, we end up watching videos during PJK. Miss Foo said she wants us to relax for this week cause its fasting month (RAMADHAN) but I dont care, my team still have time to practice... Practice makes perfect <3

photo time !!!

2009-09-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

So yeah... its school :( but who cares, me n my team mates pratice our senamrobik... seems fine as always :p

So, I had an
awesome time during practicing... I have lots of picture taken during our practice. Well adilla was a bit over with her photo... but thats what happens to photogenic people <3 So here some pics.... that i really like :)

cousins!!!!!

2009-08-29T22:28:00.000-07:00

OMG, its sunday!
my cousins are all cumin here to break fast with us! and seriously my cousins on my father's side is a-LOT :/ So, yeah I have to play and have fun with them. but I sumtimes dont like my cousins on my father's side coz first my cousins has little baby brothers n sisters... n they always go into my room without permission n go through my toy box... Then after that when its time to go home, they will leave the toys everywhere and I have to clean it up :p What a drag.....
Okie, I wont stop talking about the senamrobik thing... So, I have to teach my team mates this tuesday but I dont noe what to teach them.. coz its still 20% done and thats not even half way through :( Sorry guyz if I fail as a leader, but its also ur fault coz u guys didnt help out :) As always Im on9 everyday staring at the computer screen n doing the music and watching the steps n moves in u-tube.
I sumhow got addicted with lady gaga's song - THE FAME- its kinda awesome than the other songs I heard from her <3

I need more TIME!!!!

2009-08-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

I need more time.... y?

I am stuck with this stupid senamrobik thing... none of my friends are helping. I'm stuck with this stupid thing and their off enjoying their holiday :( Its not fair! n u wanna know sumthing... I havent finish my other homework yet. Science, geo,english.. DAMN! I hate them so much. They dont understand what its like to be the BOSS.. Its awful... seriously. Everything from top to toe (nothing is easy). I dont blame them, I blame myself for being friends with people like THEM!
Due to this, my eyes are hurting staring at the stupid computer screen. If they dont say sorry to me when I'm cumin back to school, I will be in a bad mood :/ I dont care if I have to do all the work. Its just that they will get all the credit in the end and I dont like it that way. I dont know why, everytime I call that sumone my bestest friend, one day, they will have a negative side(there must be sumtin that I dont like about them). First, their so nice. Then, its goes to another level (friend ~> best friend). In the end it will be in a horrible situation (best friend ~> enemy). I dont know, I just stress myself out and Im only 13. Wait until I have a job, I dont know how thats gonna be in the future!
Last thing to say, I just hope they understand and dont see it in another way :)

Time of Need :(

2009-08-27T05:54:00.000-07:00

Hey, do you understand your life? You do? SERIOUSLY....... Oh okie. Well I don't. Seriously you... YOU actually understand your life? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... You crack me up! Well, if you really really understand your life, you will NEVER understand mines :P

P.S.- If you fall asleep reading this... I hate you :(

So yeah.... I was happily enjoying my self until something happen. Its our PJ teacher she told us to do this insane project :P I don't even wanna say it but I have too. SENAMROBIK!!!!!! So... teacher told us to break up and make our own group. 4 people in each group. Well, I am stuck with this 3 wannabe teens - Sabrina,Aqilah n Anesha.- and as always I ended up being the leader... WHAT A DRAG :/ Teacher told us, the leader is in charge of the music and SHIT! I can't remix songs :( Oh, my fairytale ruine... WHY oh WHY! Hey,Hey, are you asleep... No? Good, There's lot more to say.
Arrgghh.... So, I didnt really bother about my senamrobik thing until it was the holiday! I am always online everyday and I have to find steps n music for the DAMN exercise. None of my team mates are helping. THANKS-a-LOT guys! Yeah maybe, Sabrina helped me out with ideas and songs but is she actually doing it? Is she actually searching,downloading,hearing,seeing music n steps everyday? I don't think SO. I am tired looking at this computer screen, It hurts my eyes @_@ So the next day, I taught hey, what the HECK am I doing this, I have my team mates don't I? I'm the leader, So, I can just boss them around.
The next day, I came to school and told them why dont you do the legs, you do the head, hands and tis and that... and we will discuss after school holidays. Yee pee :) What a relieve. Well, thats what I taught until I just figured out during the holiday that monday was a holiday and the only day my team mates and I can practice was on Tuesday but Tuesday was limited time. We had to present it on Wednesday. Like my friend,Li Qin said, " We can't expect anything in 1 day.", So, I called up the wannabe teens that its better if I just do it myself cause I was worried we cant get the song n moves together in a short time. So, now I'm cooking my butt of doing this stupid project.... Sabrina didnt help me much, everytime I call her I ended up getting the pie on my face. Did you know? I called her and told her sumthing is wrong with my u-tube, and I couldn't imagine that she was laughing... LAUGHING at a time like this! I was being serious and shes being all clowny on the other line :/ What sadness.... I just couldn't take it so I taught why don't I just hang up on her. What if she was in a situation like this, she would be really stress out. It was really sad coz my own best-friend wasn't there to support me in my time of need.
That's it... That's all I wanted to say.... Thanks for hearing my story <3